Something about giving birth changes your physical and emotional chemistry in unexplained ways. For me, it’s led to a free-flowing waterworks of tears at every single daycare and school event, ever. Or when I’m exhausted — or we’re all exhausted. Happy or sad, frustrated or angry. Tears!
Today, I bizarrely started bawling while driving Ava to school listening to John Legend’s All of Me. Because I realized that beyond its intention as a beautiful love song, it also perfectly describes the deep connection between mama and kiddo.
I mean, look at this:
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
My head’s under water
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind
Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I’m around through every mood
Even when our kids drive us completely batshit crazy out of our minds, we still love them with every fiber. And even when they hate our guts for rightfully punishing them or barging into their rooms without knocking, they love us too. It’s how it was meant to be.